I have never ever considered myself an "artist"...I tried many times to paint, draw or whatever "i" thought was ART as a child growing up...my mom even made me take "art lessons" way back when...i never liked it and never thought i was good at it...afterall, i had cousins that were extremely talented artists in music and art and therefore i never felt i was good enough or "as good as them"...to overcome this sense of failure in being an artist i went the way of crafts...i love working and creating with my hands and thus i played with yarn, knitting, crocheting, beading, making jewelry to melting glass and making lampwork beads...my first acknowlegement of being an artist...a glass artist or lampwork artist...oh how i love to melt glass and create beautiful little treasures of glass and then creating them into something wearable...or...seeing what others create with my little reflections of playful beads creating with hot flowing glass...
Long story short...over the last 2 years that my glass studio is no long available to me, i've been dabbling in many different artsy craftsy areas that i have always loved creating...i enjoy working with paper, fabric and yes even still love to knit and crochet...i must have my hands busy creating something...that's just who i am...it makes me - ME...it keeps me grounded...it helps keep me sane in a sometimes insane world...it soothes my soul and makes my heart happy...
Point of the title...Breaking Through...Recently i have let the gates down in my mind about being an artist and have decided to pull out the paints and pencils and start what you all call an art journal...my creativity is going wild and i just love it...i get so excited when i can actuall DRAW something that looks half way decent (i think) or even create a painting using all kinds of elements (mixed media i believe it is called)...so i have BROKEN THROUGH this barrier of not letting myself believe i can create "art" and am now slowly letting my creative juices flow in many new directions...
i'm sharing this little pencil drawing i did on my train ride home the other day...something about her makes me happy...